Jeremy's Broken Heart

Triumph over Tragedy❤#loveconquersall

Ok so I began writing this blog to tell the story about my son, Jeremy and how he's had to endure so much in his short lifetime and now he just needs love and support to help him finish getting through what he's been facing. I will now continue on but in order for you to really get what Jeremy has gone through is to know it ALL...from the beginning before his birth and after.

Now when I was 15, my mother, Susan, met a man by the name of, Glenn. Now from the start I new I did not like this man and of course when it comes to others love lives, I am a great judge of character...even at 15. We had been living in Florida but came to Tennessee to visit my grandmother when my mom met Glenn. Knowing in my heart he was not good, I chose to go back to Florida to live with my stepfather while my mom chose to remain here with Glenn. By the time the next summer came around and I was 16, I chose to move to Tennessee and live with my mother and guess who...yep you named it, Glenn! 

For the first year or so Glenn was not too bad or at least I thought. When I was 16.5 years old, I told my mother I was pregnant. Within a couple of months, her and Glenn moved me back to Florida where I would bring my beautiful boy into this world. Jeremy, from the start, was a bright eyed baby who was happy-go-lucky with the biggest heart I've ever known. While in Florida is the first time I found out about the abuse my mother had been enduring from Glenn, yet, she chose to stay and I wouldn't leave her side. By the time Jeremy was 3 weeks old, we packed up and moved back to Tennessee which is where the worst slowly started to come out and my family began to see Glenn for what he truly was...a egotistical, maniacal, self indulgent narcissist who believed he knew it all and could do no wrong.

Now with me being 17 at the time Jeremy was born, I was not ready nor prepared to be a stay at home mom. I believed in my mother and entrusted her to keep Jeremy safe so I could carry on being a kid for a while longer. I went to work, visited with Jeremy all the time and cared for all of Jeremy's needs, I just wasn't a live in mother for him and I say that with the deepest regret and the heaviest of hearts. 

Glenn was wonderful with Jeremy and the fact Jeremy didn't have any other man to look up to in his life, he grew to look up to his papaw. I knew Glenn was abusive to my mother but nothing I could say or do would change her mind so she stayed but to the best way f my knowledge and from what she told me, Jeremy never "saw" the abuse. Does that mean it was okay from him to hear it though? No, of course not! Kids are very observant and pay attention to more than what us adults give them credit for so unfortunately, Jeremy grew up hearing and most likely even seeing the abuse that Glenn treated mom with. 

Now aside from hearing about the abuse or even seeing it myself, I can tell you firsthand just how intimidating Glenn always tried to be. He used to go around gritting his teeth while in the most devilish voice would say, "I Am God." For the first several years, even I kind of feared him so I stayed out of the way as much as possible.

Now in 1999, I was 19 and Jeremy was 2 when my first face to face confrontation occured with Glenn. I had borrowed my mom's car telling her I was at work though I was actually watching a friend of mine graduate from high school. I of course got busted but it was mom who confronted me or got onto me for my lie...it was Glenn who in my opinion was no one other than my mother's husband. I pulled into the driveway and as soon as I stepped out of the car his words came flying in my face. We exchanged some harsh words but then the next thing I knew I was at the telephone in the house with the police on the line, then I was in the bathroom looking at my now battered face and then finally was outside with an officer of course pressing charges to have Glenn arrested. The thing is, is I don't remember in ever walking to the phone or to the bathroom nor do I remember walking outside to speak to the officer. That is how hard Glenn hit me,nwith a fist full of rage directly in my face. That night I sat in the E.R. waiting on x-rays because the doctor had believed I had a fractured or broken nose which luckily was not the case, got glue stitches on my swollen and busted upper lip and what started as one blackened eye became 2 by the following morning. 

Now after that occurrence, I grew tired of the abuse and whenever Glenn and mom would start fighting and arguing in front of me, I would quickly step in the middle to stop it because Glenn knew if he raised a hand at me again, he would go to jail again. I was no longer intimidated by him nor did I fear him. I finished my teen years as well as my adolescence and adult years dealing with him, his words and his threats but I was no longer afraid of him.

One more time in 2015 when I was at the age of 35, mom and Glenn were once again into it. Me and my 4 children were there so as usual, I stepped in the middle to stop things because Glenn normally new I would call the police if he tried anything. Mom then walked away but Glenn and I continued exchanging harsh words yet again. Unfortunately this time, my children were front and center and they both heard and saw what was about to take place. With Glenn and I exchanging words, Jeremy who was only 17 and still a minor stepped in the middle to try and calm things over. This didn't happen for all Glenn did was grab Jeremy by the arm and yank him harshly out of the way. Of course being momma bear I rushed to jeremy's side to see he was ok but then I saw red and lunged at Glenn. I didn't even get to touch him before all I felt was my head pop backward then forward quickly. Glenn had done it again so I began hitting him in return out of self defense. I then proceeded to tell him I was calling the police so he took off and left. Unfortunately I ended up once again with 2 blackened eyes, a swollen lip and 4 days in county lock up. Since Glenn had taken off and they only had my word that I did put my hands on Glenn, the officer had to arrest me!! Of course the charges were dropped and Glenn never paid for his crime of abuse and again...mom stayed!

Now I'm telling you all this because when I continue on with my next post, it will come to light the final night when it all ended. I don't want anyone to think of Jeremy as a bad person or that he even did a bad thing. I want you all to first see Glenn for what he was...an abusive monster! 

Okay, well with that being said I'm going to stop for now but will be back to continue within the next day or 2. Have a wonderful day and God bless to all!!